Tuesday 1 October 2013

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I hate the Summer. But I was glad for it this year. Not that I didn't
hate it - it's hard to be grieving when you are having to put up with
the heat and brightness and happy people all around you. But the
thing was, having to put up with the heat, just getting through each
day of it, helped because it gave my mind something else to focus
on.

I know how hard it was in January when my Dad got ill and it was

touch and go ... how hard it was to go through all that amid snow,
freezing temperatures and general winter bleakness. So even though
I hated it, I will be forever grateful that the Summer was there.

I normally like Autumn, but now it just makes me think that the

seasons are changing and those bright Sunny skies will soon be
gone ... those skies that helped mask the situation ... and then all
you'll be left with are grey days and your thoughts.

I am going to force myself to start blogging again. sometimes I'll

think of an idea - but then in the same thought will think I can't
be bothered - but I'm going to force myself. because I don't want 
to remain in that state of mind.

Thank you Randy and Krystle.

6 comments:

  1. Hello my friend. I was so happy to see your post today. Things will be better soon. I remember when my partner of 10 years passed away, it took months for me to get back into the groove of things. But as I slowly started to enter back in the swing of everyday things I found reasons to smile again. When things like this get me down I try to remember the saying "Don't cry that it's over, smile because it happened." Please know that there those who care and miss you.

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    1. I'm so sorry for your loss Randy.
      thank you for everything that you wrote.
      I really appreciate it.

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  2. Hey Georgie. I have to agree with Randy. "Smile because it happened." I don't want to sound patronizing, but a good friend of mine just died three weeks ago and I understand suffering. I'm glad that I had something so wonderful to mourn, because the more it hurts the better it was.

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  3. I'm sorry it's taken me so long to catch up. I do the same thing and vanish for a while..but I always hope you're doing good. Here's to enjoying the days ahead!

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