picture, the end of my 3 months of gigs that started with Kate Bush
at the end of august, and had me basically seeing a gig at least every
few weeks, taking in Lady GaGa, Kylie, Jesus and mary chain, Kate
Bush 2 more times, and 3 Moz gigs.
it was an exciting time. it was nice to have it all happening in autumn
time. to have so many Morrissey gigs in front of you. until one day
you wake up, it's winter, you are no longer wearing shorts ... and
there is only one more gig left, and it's at the O2 ... amid 20,000
people. kind of a big deal. and you'll also be meeting a load of other
Moz fans for the first time. so I was a bag of nerves for many reasons.
me mid afternoon sun ... nerves not visible. just about to go
to a chip shop and buy some chips (they were real nice too)
The Queen Is Dead
Staircase At The University
World Peace Is None Of Your Business
Kiss Me A Lot
I'm Throwing My Arms Around Paris
Smiler With Knife
The Bullfighter Dies
Trouble Loves Me
Earth Is The Loneliest Planet
Neal Cassady Drops Dead
Meat Is Murder
Kick The Bride Down The Aisle
I'm Not A Man
Everyday Is Like Sunday
and it no doubt shows ... but he buys me a drink, we get talking and I feel
a lot more relaxed.
Oh yeah, amid all the anxious-ness. Moz is playing a gig. in London. his
first for 3 years. at the biggest venue in London. this is not like the usual
times I have seen him in London at Brixton etc, for sure.
I had wondered if the gig started with THE QUEEN IS DEAD, how would
the crowd near me react ... how would I react? would I have the urge and
just be compelled to dart forward into the throng?! the thing is you can't
plan what is going to happen, things have to catch you off-guard, when
you just react spontaneously, like when I heard The Queen is Dead start
up in Pescara.
as it is. the first song was The Queen Is Dead. and no I wasn't compelled to
dart forward. it was not the mass eruption (crowd wise) that I had expected
(and that this song deserves) sure there is movement in the crowd near the
front but near me, people enjoy it but there are no mass extreme reactions.
it's all very british. but in a way it's good, I can watch the gig from where I
am. I have done the whole going crazy/losing it to the music bit at the last
2 gigs I saw.
Suedehead was a surprise as the 2nd song. it gets a really great reaction.
Staircase At The University follows on. haha. this is where my shyness
creeps in. because Stu is to my right I cannot just react like I normally
would. if it was a random gig person who I would never see again, I
would not care less. but like I said, I go all shy and not enough alcohol
has been drank, so my flamenco infused feet-taps and claps remain
under wraps ... but inside I am happy as hell. AND this may very well
be evident by the 'cool-dude nodding' reaction I give to this song.
forward to 13.30 below to get Staircase in all it's flamenco glory.
in my proudest Moz moment (ever) I proudly inform Stu the next song
is Istanbul. and he tells me it's not (it's actually World Peace Is None Of
Your Business) damn those sublime starts of songs ... getting me all
confused ... *not hard to do, to be fair ;)
I'm Throwing My Arms Around Paris is sublime, beautiful and still
makes me melt ... oh and Stu casually informs me that he doesn't
really like this song ... what?! (and I am still rocked by this revelation!!)
and then he does Istanbul and I'm like "oh yeah, that be the song"
with that actual correct intro. me still with egg on my face (but still kinda
proud) just to make sure the moment is NOT forgotten, I have to point
out to Stu that this REALLY IS Istanbul.
I admit I like Smiler With Knife now. since seeing it live my opinion
of it has changed drastically. it's still no Mountjoy or Art-Hounds
to me. but I do find it very beautiful. so Viva Live Gigs for changing
your opinions of songs. and Viva Moz too. obviously.
I film something for the first time during The Bullfighter Dies. I just
did not want to spend a lot of the gig filming songs. but I wanted to
have a few reminders of the gig and my view of it.
I manage to redeem myself slightly by correctly recognising Trouble Loves
Me when it starts and telling Stu. and even though I knew it was this song
as sure as ... (insert whatever you know for a fact is truth) I was still a bit
embarrassed from what had happened earlier, which even made me have
doubts in that moment (?!) so boy I was glad when the long winding intro
turned into the actual start of the song. redeemed. and by THIS SONG.
oh yeah. this song. well there's no way in hell I could react how I have
in the past to this song tonight. for a start, I am not close to the stage
or even on the second row. and like I said Stu is near me, and it's not
like I think he would laugh or even think bad of me.
it's just like I said earlier, it's easier when you are at gigs with people
you will never see again. you don't care what they think ... I mean in
Pescara I was basically hoarse from screaming the words out.
so here, it's very english. very reserved.
gently singing along.
in the corner of my eye I see Stu is singing along.
I didn't want him to see me noticing.
but it was nice to see. a cute moment.
you see in that moment what Moz meant to him.
what Moz means to me.
I like that it was all very subdued.
no extreme reactions or displays.
but all the feelings were there inside.
bursting out and filling you with euphoria.
it was actually all pretty perfect.
Neal Cassady Drops Dead is a huge favourite of mine live. I have all
but given up of ever hearing Art-Hounds live again!! ;) ... so the 3 songs
I want off the new album are:
I'm Not A Man
I love the swagger, beats and whole nonchalant unforgiving attitude
Neal Cassady has live. but I think that also applies I'm Not A Man,
and for me that song pushes those feelings even further.
unbelievably there is NO youtube footage of this song. a shame
as it would be great to relive the savage beauty of it echoing around
the vast O2.
I enjoyed it a lot. as it was quite near the end of the set. a few sneaky
moves might have slipped out. but I am sure they were undetected
by the naked eye. or casual gig-goer. no word if Stu actually noticed
Meat Is Murder affected me hugely ... because I was a bit far back
I could actually see the footage in good detail, and I am sure new
footage has been inserted since 2011-2012? or perhaps I have just
forgotten some of the specific scenes. it is still thought provoking.
and it baffles me when I read about people who have walked out
after seeing it and say it has left them traumatised. I think there
is a difference to being traumatised because it makes you have to
THINK where the meat you eat actually comes from. where as it
leaves me traumatised by the people shown in the footage openly
treating the animals in such a disgusting way.
just like The Queen Is Dead. I had no idea how I would react when this
started up. Pescara was basically the most intense I have *ever* reacted
to this song (and yes THIS is me you can hear "reacting" as it starts up)
but just like The Queen Is Dead from earlier. when it starts up nothing
really happens around me. no crowd surging forward, so I stay where I
am. and that's okay. it could never be how it had been ever again. I am
happy to enjoy it from a different perspective.
but it will always be Speedway.
and it will always be special.
by now I have all but given up hope of hearing Mountjoy. once the gig
had got underway ... EVERY song that had started up, I hoped it would
be that song.
now I know it's very unlikely to happen. it being sang 2 days earlier
had got me all hopeful. for me it should have been played at every
gig. it is that important a song. I love Scandinavia but I would
have happily traded a song that is not even on the main album
for one that IS and one that touches you on so many levels.
so the last two songs are Asleep and Everyday Is Like Sunday.
what I liked is that things actually went really crazy in the audience
for this song, bodies were crowd surfing to the front. the audience
reaction was nice to see and especially cause it was to this song.
so for the second time only that night. I filmed a bit of the gig.
it's a great way to end the gig, it feels triumphant and encompassing.
you could really feel that this was one song that everyone was so happy
to be hearing.
and that it's all over. no more Moz gigs on the horizon. your lil mini
3 month adventure is over. Moz seemed happy and touched by the
reaction he received tonight. I hope he does not leave it that long to
play London, and feel that love again.
I'm such a wuss, just watching the above makes me emotional.
'you should be a morrisey fan'
oh wait I already am ;)
I want to say hello to all the people who I met at the after show.
it was lovely to meet you all. I liked you all a lot.
me and stu. a cool dude.