Sunday, 11 January 2015

Morrissey - O2, London - 29 November 2014

   So this is where it ends. my last Morrissey gig and also in the bigger 
   picture, the end of my 3 months of gigs that started with Kate Bush 
   at the end of august, and had me basically seeing a gig at least every 
   few weeks, taking in Lady GaGa, Kylie, Jesus and mary chain, Kate 
   Bush 2 more times, and 3 Moz gigs.

   it was an exciting time. it was nice to have it all happening in autumn 
   time. to have so many Morrissey gigs in front of you. until one day 
   you wake up, it's winter, you are no longer wearing shorts ... and 
   there is only one more gig left, and it's at the O2 ... amid 20,000 
   people. kind of a big deal. and you'll also be meeting a load of other 
   Moz fans for the first time. so I was a bag of nerves for many reasons.


   me mid afternoon sun ... nerves not visible. just about to go 
   to a chip shop and buy some chips (they were real nice too)








   The Queen Is Dead 
   Suedehead 
   Staircase At The University 
   World Peace Is None Of Your Business 
   Kiss Me A Lot 
   I'm Throwing My Arms Around Paris 
   Istanbul
   Smiler With Knife 
   The Bullfighter Dies 
   Trouble Loves Me 
   Earth Is The Loneliest Planet 
   Neal Cassady Drops Dead 
   Meat Is Murder 
   Scandinavia 
   Kick The Bride Down The Aisle 
   I'm Not A Man 
   Speedway 

   Asleep
   Everyday Is Like Sunday


   I meet Stu before the gig starts. I am ridiculously anxious and nervous. 
   and it no doubt shows ... but he buys me a drink, we get talking and I feel
   a lot more relaxed.

   Oh yeah, amid all the anxious-ness. Moz is playing a gig. in London. his 
   first for 3 years. at the biggest venue in London. this is not like the usual
   times I have seen him in London at Brixton etc, for sure.

   I had wondered if the gig started with THE QUEEN IS DEAD, how would 
   the crowd near me react ... how would I react? would I have the urge and 
   just be compelled to dart forward into the throng?! the thing is you can't 
   plan what is going to happen, things have to catch you off-guard, when 
   you just react spontaneously, like when I heard The Queen is Dead start
   up in Pescara. 

   as it is. the first song was The Queen Is Dead. and no I wasn't compelled to 
   dart forward. it was not the mass eruption (crowd wise) that I had expected 
   (and that this song deserves) sure there is movement in the crowd near the 
   front but near me, people enjoy it but there are no mass extreme reactions. 
   it's all very british. but in a way it's good, I can watch the gig from where I 
   am. I have done the whole going crazy/losing it to the music bit at the last 
   2 gigs I saw.



   Suedehead was a surprise as the 2nd song. it gets a really great reaction.
   Staircase At The University follows on. haha. this is where my shyness 
   creeps in. because Stu is to my right I cannot just react like I normally 
   would. if it was a random gig person who I would never see again, I 
   would not care less. but like I said, I go all shy and not enough alcohol 
   has been drank, so my flamenco infused feet-taps and claps remain
   under wraps ... but inside I am happy as hell. AND this may very well
   be evident by the 'cool-dude nodding' reaction I give to this song.

   forward to 13.30 below to get Staircase in all it's flamenco glory.




   in my proudest Moz moment (ever) I proudly inform Stu the next song
   is Istanbul. and he tells me it's not (it's actually World Peace Is None Of 
   Your Business) damn those sublime starts of songs ... getting me all
   confused ... *not hard to do, to be fair ;)

   I'm Throwing My Arms Around Paris is sublime, beautiful and still
   makes me melt ... oh and Stu casually informs me that he doesn't
   really like this song ... what?! (and I am still rocked by this revelation!!)



   and then he does Istanbul and I'm like "oh yeah, that be the song" 
   with that actual correct intro. me still with egg on my face (but still kinda 
   proud) just to make sure the moment is NOT forgotten, I have to point 
   out to Stu that this REALLY IS Istanbul. 



   I admit I like Smiler With Knife now. since seeing it live my opinion
   of it has changed drastically. it's still no Mountjoy or Art-Hounds 
   to me. but I do find it very beautiful. so Viva Live Gigs for changing
   your opinions of songs. and Viva Moz too. obviously.

   I film something for the first time during The Bullfighter Dies. I just 
   did not want to spend a lot of the gig filming songs. but I wanted to 
   have a few reminders of the gig and my view of it.


  
   I manage to redeem myself slightly by correctly recognising Trouble Loves 
   Me when it starts and telling Stu. and even though I knew it was this song
   as sure as ... (insert whatever you know for a fact is truth) I was still a bit 
   embarrassed from what had happened earlier, which even made me have
   doubts in that moment (?!) so boy I was glad when the long winding intro 
   turned into the actual start of the song. redeemed. and by THIS SONG.

   oh yeah. this song. well there's no way in hell I could react how I have
   in the past to this song tonight. for a start, I am not close to the stage
   or even on the second row. and like I said Stu is near me, and it's not
   like I think he would laugh or even think bad of me.

   it's just like I said earlier, it's easier when you are at gigs with people 
   you will never see again. you don't care what they think ... I mean in 
   Pescara I was basically hoarse from screaming the words out. 

   so here, it's very english. very reserved. 
   gently singing along.
   in the corner of my eye I see Stu is singing along.
   I didn't want him to see me noticing.
   but it was nice to see. a cute moment.
   you see in that moment what Moz meant to him.
  
   what Moz means to me.
   I like that it was all very subdued.
   no extreme reactions or displays.
   but all the feelings were there inside.
   bursting out and filling you with euphoria.
   it was actually all pretty perfect. 



   Neal Cassady Drops Dead is a huge favourite of mine live. I have all 
   but given up of ever hearing Art-Hounds live again!! ;) ... so the 3 songs 
   I want off the new album are:

   Mountjoy
   Neal C
   I'm Not A Man

   
   I love the swagger, beats and whole nonchalant unforgiving attitude 
   Neal Cassady has live. but I think that also applies I'm Not A Man, 
   and for me that song pushes those feelings even further.

   unbelievably there is NO youtube footage of this song. a shame
   as it would be great to relive the savage beauty of it echoing around
   the vast O2.

   I enjoyed it a lot. as it was quite near the end of the set. a few sneaky
   moves might have slipped out. but I am sure they were undetected 
   by the naked eye. or casual gig-goer. no word if Stu actually noticed
   anything. 

   Meat Is Murder affected me hugely ... because I was a bit far back 
   I could actually see the footage in good detail, and I am sure new
  footage has been inserted since 2011-2012? or perhaps I have just
  forgotten some of the specific scenes. it is still thought provoking. 
  and it baffles me when I read about people who have walked out 
  after seeing it and say it has left them traumatised. I think there 
  is a difference to being traumatised because it makes you have to
  THINK where the meat you eat actually comes from. where as it 
  leaves me traumatised by the people shown in the footage openly 
  treating the animals in such a disgusting way.


   
   Speedway.
   Speedway.
   Speedway.

   just like The Queen Is Dead. I had no idea how I would react when this
   started up. Pescara was basically the most intense I have *ever* reacted
   to this song (and yes THIS is me you can hear "reacting" as it starts up)

   but just like The Queen Is Dead from earlier. when it starts up nothing
   really happens around me. no crowd surging forward, so I stay where I 
   am. and that's okay. it could never be how it had been ever again. I am 
   happy to enjoy it from a different perspective.

   but it will always be Speedway.
   and it will always be special.



   by now I have all but given up hope of hearing Mountjoy. once the gig
   had got underway ... EVERY song that had started up, I hoped it would 
   be that song. 

   now I know it's very unlikely to happen. it being sang 2 days earlier
   had got me all hopeful. for me it should have been played at every
   gig. it is that important a song. I love Scandinavia but I would
   have happily traded a song that is not even on the main album 
   for one that IS and one that touches you on so many levels.

   so the last two songs are Asleep and Everyday Is Like Sunday.
   what I liked is that things actually went really crazy in the audience
   for this song, bodies were crowd surfing to the front. the audience
   reaction was nice to see and especially cause it was to this song. 
   so for the second time only that night. I filmed a bit of the gig.

   it's a great way to end the gig, it feels triumphant and encompassing.
   you could really feel that this was one song that everyone was so happy 
   to be hearing. 

   and that it's all over. no more Moz gigs on the horizon. your lil mini
   3 month adventure is over. Moz seemed happy and touched by the
   reaction he received tonight. I hope he does not leave it that long to
   play London, and feel that love again. 


   
   I'm such a wuss, just watching the above makes me emotional.
   'you should be a morrisey fan'
   oh wait I already am ;)

   I want to say hello to all the people who I met at the after show. 
   it was lovely to meet you all. I liked you all a lot. 


   me and stu. a cool dude. 

Thursday, 27 November 2014

Morrissey - Palasport Giovanni Paolo II, Pescara - 19 October 2014

so this was a pretty big deal. Morrissey playing Pescara. the town closest to
where my relatives are in Italy. what are the odds?!! the whole idea was go 
to Italy see relatives, see moz. and my Mum gets to see the man who has
impacted me so much. I found that the cutest thing ever. 


me in my favorite Morrissey t shirt before setting off for the gig.
excuse the doofy expression. I was rather stressed out/excited
in anticipation of the gig ... not to mention the whole trying 
to get a good photo thing ... which I gave up on ;)

only in Italy would be the BOOTLEG MERCH be set up like this!! 
... no, dumped all over the pavements like in the UK!!!

I bought the Meat is Murder/Hatful of Hollow ones below.
why the hell did I not buy the Sheila one above??!! NO IDEA!!!



first glimpse inside of the stage 

the official merch. I bought the t shirt on the right above.
I rather like the WORLD PEACE one below 








The Queen Is Dead
Speedway
Certain People I Know
World Peace Is None Of Your Business 
I'm Throwing My Arms Around Paris
Kiss Me A Lot
Neal Cassady Drops Dead
Istanbul
Trouble Loves Me
The Bullfighter Dies
Kick the Bride Down The Aisle
Earth Is The Loneliest Planet
Meat Is Murder
How Soon Is Now?
You Have Killed Me
I'm Not A Man 

Asleep 
Everyday Is Like Sunday 



the realisation that THE QUEEN IS DEAD has just started up shocks me 
so much that for a minute I am so startled, I don't know how to react. 
then I do, I stop recording on the flip immediately. put it into my pocket
and without even thinking, start REACTING to this song.

this is very good, with this first song a precedent has been set, and I 
mean for me in the audience. I have reacted, people near me know 
have reacted. that awkward, just reacting a little bit, all polite and 
conservative thing you do at the start of gigs never even happened ...  
it has been bypassed. and within 30 seconds. 

nice one moz. please start all gigs like this. 

I am jumping up and down punching the air, singing along, all whilst 
still adjusting to the realisation that THIS is happening. I am finally 
hearing this song live, and it could not be any more perfect. live it's 
brutal and powerful and all encompassing. 


the flip was still recording whilst in my pocket!!! this is priceless to me. 
it takes me right back ... hear me during QUEEN at 0:39/1:11 

SPEEDWAY as the second song and FOLLOWING on from what has 
already happened catches me so off guard, and is SO PERFECT that I 
let out the loudest roar/scream within 2 seconds of it starting. listening 
back to it now (at 3:20 above) it gives me goose pimples and made me
well up with tears. that night it was the most perfect moz gig moment
I have EVER been a part of.

listen for me singing along at 3:46 ;)
listen for me singing along at 4:53 ;)

this is the most perfect 2 song gig opener I have ever witnessed.

I love how the the tempo of the song lends itself so well to jumping 
up and down ... and also how the song meanders and almost drifts 
off dreamily and then picks up, meaning that the intensity of your 
reactions is always changing. right up until you get to the 'written lies' 
bit when you are just screaming your lungs out, like you have waited 
2 years for this moment ... oh hang on, YOU HAVE ... and you just 
hear your own voice over everything else. and the realisation hits you, 
of the importance of all this, this moment, to you (6:42/7:04 above)

CERTAIN PEOPLE I KNOW is a good 3rd song. you can just enjoy it, 
in a 'having a rock-a-billy style dance' way. it's not as intense as the 
previous 2 songs, but I wouldn't really want a 3rd song to be. 

it's a joyous 3 minutes revelling in it and marvelling at what has already 
happened.

everyone claps along to the start of WORLD PEACE IS NONE OF YOUR
BUSINESS. and it's a really cute and nice moment. 

I'M THROWING MY ARMS AROUND PARIS is joyous and celebrationary 
and is just plain lovely. I am so happy now, that I am just enjoying it all 
and am totally relaxed

Morrissey says PES-CARA (in 2 parts) after and its the cutest thing ever!

KISS ME A LOT. not a big fave off the album. neverthless it's a cute lil 
thing that you can just sway along to and just immerse yourself in and
enjoy.

Moz reads out a banner "Pescara is happiest Coastal town of all" and
adds "that's what they say la la la la" and it is darn cute. yes people have 
made banners. it's cute and shows what this concert, means to them. 
take note UK ... make banners. show moz you love him/are grateful to 
see him ;)

NEAL CASSADY DROPS DEAD follows on from the mood of before,
except it gets more intense reactions from me, cause I love this song 
so much. the best thing is with the start of the gig having been like 
THAT, I am already in the frame of mind where I JUST DON'T CARE 
... some gigs (not necessarily Moz) you get through the whole gig and 
never reach that stage

and INSTANBUL carries on that frame of mind just lovely ... ISTANBUL
astounds me with it's power and beauty live, which I had noticed instantly
when it was played in Milan. I mean I loved it already, but it is even more
beautiful and touching live. if that is possible. obviously because it is all
happening in front of you and not on a cd, it is going to have a huge impact
on you. and this sure does. 


''By now you expect my Italian to be fluent ... it isn't!!" 
(cute bit at the start of above)

the crowd all cheer when the meandering music intro goes into the start
of TROUBLE LOVES ME ... this song abruptly ends the casual relaxed
atmosphere I have been enjoying in previous songs. obviously, it's THIS
SONG ...  the emotions slowly building up in me. my voice getting louder 
until all I can hear is my voice over everything around me ... and by the 
time it gets to the 'charlatanize me' and the "so english frowning" bit 
I am screaming the words out like I have never been touched by any 
other words so deeply. 

hear off-key brit singing (me, not moz) at 4.18/4.28/4.50/5.03 /5.23/5.28
and err 5.43 hahaha



the start of HOW SOON IS NOW vibrates through. it is so loud and 
apocalyptic that I instantly start jumping up and down and never let up. 
NO-ONE ELSE REACTS.

it makes no difference. I carry on doing the same, I think of Daz, who 
I know would be doing the same if he was here ... this is even better 
than when I heard it in Manchester 2012. I am not going to waste how 
I have already felt earlier in this gig, to suddenly NOT react now, even 
if I am all alone.

so I go for it ... like I never have gone for it ever before. all alone.

above at 1:44. right hand corner. the 2 arms punching the air. that 
is me. keep an eye on that corner (and me) as the song progresses ;)
haha me at 2:23. pretty funny to see myself. I guess I #kinda went for
it!!! ;)

at the end, some guy appears from nowhere and starts jumping up 
and down with me!! ... it was a nice moment to realise one other 
person had to react in a similiar way



then something funny happened. I decided to move. move from the 
right hand side where I had been all gig, into the crowd. just decided 
to do it. I wanted to be more near the front. so I did. the italians were 
not too impressed with someone squeezing by them. but oh well. I had 
made up my mind ... that makes me sound a very confident person!!! 
which I am not, I just wanted to be closer to Moz, and wasn't gonna let 
their faces of disapprovement stop me. so I get to just a few rows from 
the front as ASLEEP starts up and film it on my Flip (above) how perfect 
and beautiful is it?? it meant a lot to the crowd, people were all singing 
along all around me.



EVERYDAY IS LIKE SUNDAY starts up, it all goes a bit mental. I am 
on the 2nd row. it's chaotic and beautiful. intense and life affirming. 
it affects me in a way that it hasn't for years. when you like a song so
much and it has affected you so strongly so much in the past, it can be 
hard for it to affect you on the same level every time. but tonight it was
back to how it had used to affect me. hitting me all at once, the power
and beauty (and desperation) of it

and this is where things go weird. very weird. good weird.
see 0:14 above

morrissey tickles my fingers
MORRISSEY TICKLES MY FINGERS!!!!!

this affected me so much, and left me in such a state I had no idea
he had even done a shirt toss at the end of the song.

see a different view (from just behind me) below at 2:41 

excuse me while I go cry for 500 years.
I AM NOT EVEN LYING.
these videos make me want to cry right here. right now.
from happiness. I am a wuss. I am G.

also, how fkng amazing and JOYOUS does it sound??!!
I was DYING OF HAPPINESS  before he even tickled my fingers
best live version I have ever been a part of.



needless to say. I was in a daze as the gig ended. 
I am so happy that I had decided to move into the crowd.
I never could have expected that to happen.
and before that it had been a perfect gig.

I had no words for my happiness.

update on post moz gig experiences.
my mum really liked it (Sunday was fave)
my uncle who previously said he did not really like the
cd versions of the songs that much really enjoyed it all live
(update: he loves the cds now)
so impressed was he, he could not work out how he had never
saw the Smiths in the 80s when he was seeing Simple Minds,
U2 etc 

his girlfriend loved it. she is even more obsessed with his songs now
LET ME KISS YOU is her fave (she loves the hollywood live version)
but she loved that song before the gig, I had told her I doubt it would
be played. she loves it even more now. she can't stop listening to the
cds. we are gonna go see moz the next time he plays Italy.

final thoughts on gig.
best 2 song start to a moz gig ever.
Trouble killed me and How Soon is now finished me off. 
no words for Sunday.

I love you Morrissey.
thanks for the tickle. 

Sunday, 23 November 2014

.



  this picture of me sitting on that bench is pretty significant.

  I took this photo around July time of this year. the previous year 
  around August time I often used to sit in that same place and 
  just cry. I have no idea what the people in the building opposite 
  used to think.

  but this day/month/period above was important because I used 
  to walk by that building and had the realisation how much things 
  had changed and improved since the last year, and I did not just 
  cry out of the blue anymore.

  for months I couldn't even tell people my dad had died. I could
  not say the words ... that word, it had such a ring of finality to it.
  I mean I totally understood he was gone, but it was like saying
  that word meant accepting it.

  I avoided Costa Coffee for 3 months. because I could not handle 
  if a girl I knew in there asked how I was. she already knew about 
  my dad previously being ill. so I just didn't go in. I was fine so 
  long as people didn't ask how I was.

  you never realise how things have actually changed until it hits 
  you all at once.

  when things happen slowly, you hardly notice them happening. 
  a person can gradually get more ill, but because it happens so
  slowly and over a a long period of time, you kind of get used to 
  it. until something hits you out of the blue. when my dad ended 
  up in hospital in January 2013, the severity basically came out 
  of nowhere and I was faced with the prospect that he might not 
  make it through the night ... and I was not talking to him at the 
  time.

  he did make it through that night. and I did go and see him in 
  hospital. it's hard to see someone who always was such a strong 
  figure hooked up to breathing apparatus, asking "is there any 
  hope for me?" ... that is still very hard for me to think about.
  and at the time it took everything for me not to cry right there 
  and then. I looked at the ground a lot. I focused on random
  things in the ward. anything to focus my mind on something
  else ... like I said, something like that comes out of the blue 
  and hits you all at once.

  in that period it used to kill me that I would be in the gym (trying 
  to focus my mind, and failing) and he was in the hospital, alone, 
  less than half a mile up the road. I used to pray that I would get 
  another chance. and if I did, I would give him a hug.

  I got another chance. and I didn't give him a hug. I didn't correct 
  all of the things I had wanted. he was ill. everything was pretty 
  much a struggle for him. I felt awkward ...  also you slip back into 
  thinking everything is going to be okay and you will have plenty 
  of time ... but I didn't. all I got was 6 months. until the same thing 
  happened again ... and this time there was not another chance.

  I managed the tiniest of things though.

  he knows I loved him and I know he loved me. these moments 
  are what I hold onto. 

  that January was a dreadful time, but as crazy as it sounds I am 
  so grateful for it. if people think I am in a mess now, I dread to 
  think what they would have made of me, if I would not have had 
  a second chance to have corrected just a few things. I would have
  been devastated if he would have died that night and things would
  have been left how they were. 

  my last memories of my dad are horrible. that I can't write about. 
  basically what happened in January happened again 6 months 
  later. I have good memories too. when I was about 9, at school, 
  something had upset me towards the end of the day. I knew if I 
  remained upset my dad would come in and shout and get mad at 
  people and find out why I was so upset. and he did. I was pretty 
  cheeky back then. 

  he often used to take me and my sister to school in his BMW. 
  it was nice. kids were envious. like I said I have good memories. 
  I could have  had years more though. I am such a fool.

  Now.

  I am a lot better now than I was a year ago ... but in some ways 
  worst. in many ways it was easier then. finality and acceptance 
  of things is something totally different altogether. last year my 
  emotions came in waves, out of the blue the horror of what had 
  happened would hit me. now it's totally different, quite often if 
  something else upsets me, then thinking about my dad enters 
  the picture and affects everything. and like last year, everything 
  seemed a hell of a lot easier when the sun was shining. but like 
  I said at the start of this, I have made progress. it may not seem 
  like it sometimes, but I most definitely have.



  I like this photo. look how happy he looks.


  the BMW. he was not happy that day. Car problems. 
  he was fetching us all back from Bournemouth. 
  how awkward does it look. I still like the picture though.

  What I learnt.

  I spent so long thinking everything was A/B and C ... and that 
  we were very different people. only to realise I am pretty much 
  him. I wish I could have worked it all out sooner. I wish I had 
  not been so stubborn. Fathers and Sons. The irony is he basically 
  had the same relationship with his father. He was not talking to 
  his dad when he died. and he was in a very bad way in the period
  afterwards.

  Now I know how he felt. and I can't hug him. or talk to him.

  Don't waste time. Tell people how you feel.
  Learn from my mistakes.

  Thank you to the people who have helped me.
  You know who you are.



Friday, 21 November 2014

Morrissey - Teatro Linear, Milan - 16 October 2014





The Bullfighter Dies
Kiss Me A Lot
You Have Killed Me
Certain People I Know
Neal Cassady Drops Dead
Everyday Is Like Sunday
How Soon Is Now?
World Peace Is None Of Your Business
I'm Throwing My Arms Around Paris
Speedway
Istanbul
Trouble Loves Me
Earth Is The Loneliest Planet
Kick the Bride Down The Aisle
I'm Not A Man
Meat Is Murder

One Day Goodbye Will Be Farewell



as I had hoped as soon as the lights go down everyone in seats rushed 
forward. and I do too. okay let me re-phrase that, only people from 
the first 8 rows move forward (I am row 7) ... but more on that later.

so after 2 years waiting. I am finally seeing Morrissey again. it is pretty
overwhelming, and I am curious what the first song will be. something 
epic and big and dramatic?? ... err it's The Bullfighter Dies!!! 

not my ideal set opener, especially after such a long wait. I sure as 
hell would have liked something a lot more dramatic (2 days Georgie 
#patience my boy) but having said that, it's a nice start, really joyful. 

the crowd is not manic, just really chilled. it's not what I am used to at 
a moz gig, but having said that it's nice. I mean I am not getting crushed 
to death (hello brixton) so I just enjoy it for what it is. it sure is very
interesting though seeing moz gigs outside the uk. Milan is definitely 
very similar to the New York gigs I saw, in how they react.



 things stay pretty much the same for Kiss me a lot. I like the song
 but it's definitely not one of my big favourites off the album.

Certain People I know is a big surprise, never heard it live. it's a jolly
lil thing. and I like it a lot. 1991 era moz. yes please.

Neal Cassady Drops Dead is one I really really wanted to hear off the 
new album. it is jarring, confrontational,  and in your face live. and yes
those jerking beats suit my dancing style (just shoulder moving really)
down to the ground. it's a marvel to see you know (it isn't really)



How Soon Is Now? is a shock. a good shock. 3 years since I heard it in
Manchester, it is one I was hoping to hear. it is loud and brutal and 
combined with being so close to the stage, the impact and sound is 
encompassing. the crowd hardly react. it's a weird one. it's all good
and well to go into the gig with the idea that you are going to go all
crazy, but when you are down the front and hardly anyone is moving
that plan kinda goes out the window. it would be pretty awkward if
you were the only one reacting in that way. so you kinda adapt to the
situation you find yourself in.

 now lets talk about that. I had always expected italian fans to be really 
 wild (cause I know how devoted they are) ... so imagine my shock at
 a/ how the audience near the front "react" ... and b/ the fact that after 
 the few rows of people that had moved down to the front, the rest of 
 the audience stay IN THEIR SEATS (basically) arms folded, with a look
 of ENTERTAIN ME on their faces ... this is a weird ass gig for sure.





**me above (cap) at 0.24/0.56 

so Speedway is not the epic live thing I had expected. well it IS in how it 
is played. I mean the audience reaction. I mean look at the above. exactly.
I did actually react after the break bit in the song, but that wasn't recorded
in the above. so there you go ... just picture me punching the air.



3.37 me cap/white t shirt punching air. yeah I love this song. and that
bit always really gets me. I always get a bit emotional at this part of it.



4.03 - 4.33 me, clapping ... punching the air (mixing it up yo) 
4.41 really going for it ... all alone haha. 

so I'm not a man. aside from Art-hounds and Mountjoy, this was the
main other new song I wanted to hear live. and I love it even more 
now I have witnessed it live. see the bits above. yeah I like it a lot.

this perfectly sums up the problem with this gig, things (audience wise)
are not as manic as what I am used to in the uk. there is never a moment
when it all just goes off (and you with it) the irony is just as it was getting 
to that stage with I'm Not a Man and One Day goodbye will be farewell, 
the gig ended.



Morrissey rejects my hand at 0.43!!!!! ... oh moz moz moz. I will get
your hand. I really will you know ;)

2.02  see my take the letter from the fan TO GIVE TO MOZ (cause he could 
not reach) haha I could have shook Moz's hand I bet, but I wanted to help 
that dude out. haha how nice am I??!! (I am pretty nice actually)


overall verdict.
it was great to see Morrissey
the crowd behind me was crap
the crowd near me was okay
just as I was getting really into it, it ended.

so not the manic gig I had hoped for
but still definitely worth all the effort to see it

little did I know but boy, how things would be very different in 2 days time 
in Pescara ... boy oh boy what was to come. I had no idea

... to be continued